give me the strength to keep my head above water

I am so frustrated with everything in my life right now.

Work had a extremely low point, but I am doing my best to turn it around.

My social life, my family life, everything has come to a point where all I honestly want to do is hang my head in defeat. but I won't. I am not that kind of person and I refuse to be.

I don't feel like doing anything, I don't feel like being awake, I just want to let it all pass.

It's 2008 all over again, and it took so much to get out of that slump. I don't want to give in, but at the same time I really honestly do. I just wish I could smile for something...anything.

I'm so tired of being alone, of being so lonely all the time. I miss having someone in my life that wanted to be with me, to cuddle me and pamper me when I was feeling down.

I'm tired of waiting for things to change, and unfortunately, these aren't things I can just fix myself.