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May. 6th, 2004 06:47 amtomorrow's my birthday. and I'm miserable. because talking to him makes me want him, and wanting him makes me sad, and being sad makes me cry, and crying makes me angry, the whole damn circle all start over.
Credit to This wonderful person for my icons. The songset from Everybody's Fool has made it as my icons. Eventually I'll put something up, but for now, it's Evanescence.
I can't stop being sad, being depressed. He accuses me of not caring, because I'm not actively fighting for us. I did all I could, which was nothing. I bow down before my parents, I always have. Maybewith my mother I can win some battles, but the war is not my own and I can't do a damn thing about it. This is his part. If he realy wants this relationship, he'll call them...
DistantVampire: the only thing I'm going to say is that you can't loose so many emotions in a day, no matter how I might say I did. If you want to try and make it work, talk to my dad.
GordoJ17: I think I will...
Tomorrow I'm going to dinner ith Akasha, Louis, David, Pandora, Earnest, and Colin. [THe former Armand xD] And they've got to cheer me up. So I hope they can make it. when we go to the mall, i want to go see Van Helsing...Hugh Jackman ...purrr....
Which reminds me...I keep seeing all of these people as very attractive...like this fish in my class named Paco. He's sexy to me. And it's odd because he always falls asleep, and I love to watch people sleeping [with consent pervs] they are so relaxed, not putting on airs for anyone just being themselves at their absolute selves. There are so many people that seem so attractive to me....even if I wont say a word about it to anyone. 'cept the world who sees this lol.
Shriek likes me. I was aware that he kinda did...but not like as in 'Wanna date you' like. Which is odd becuase he was the one who saw me right after Colin almost made me break down...so he got the after effects of my emotions....I think of him like my big brother, I couldn't date him though..it'd be to weird.
I'm not getting another bf all year. If this doesn't work out, I'm not going to me moody and emotional for 15 days just to not see them over the summer. so yeah.
happy day before the anniversary of my birth.
Credit to This wonderful person for my icons. The songset from Everybody's Fool has made it as my icons. Eventually I'll put something up, but for now, it's Evanescence.
I can't stop being sad, being depressed. He accuses me of not caring, because I'm not actively fighting for us. I did all I could, which was nothing. I bow down before my parents, I always have. Maybewith my mother I can win some battles, but the war is not my own and I can't do a damn thing about it. This is his part. If he realy wants this relationship, he'll call them...
DistantVampire: the only thing I'm going to say is that you can't loose so many emotions in a day, no matter how I might say I did. If you want to try and make it work, talk to my dad.
GordoJ17: I think I will...
Tomorrow I'm going to dinner ith Akasha, Louis, David, Pandora, Earnest, and Colin. [THe former Armand xD] And they've got to cheer me up. So I hope they can make it. when we go to the mall, i want to go see Van Helsing...Hugh Jackman ...purrr....
Which reminds me...I keep seeing all of these people as very attractive...like this fish in my class named Paco. He's sexy to me. And it's odd because he always falls asleep, and I love to watch people sleeping [with consent pervs] they are so relaxed, not putting on airs for anyone just being themselves at their absolute selves. There are so many people that seem so attractive to me....even if I wont say a word about it to anyone. 'cept the world who sees this lol.
Shriek likes me. I was aware that he kinda did...but not like as in 'Wanna date you' like. Which is odd becuase he was the one who saw me right after Colin almost made me break down...so he got the after effects of my emotions....I think of him like my big brother, I couldn't date him though..it'd be to weird.
I'm not getting another bf all year. If this doesn't work out, I'm not going to me moody and emotional for 15 days just to not see them over the summer. so yeah.
happy day before the anniversary of my birth.
