Squee!

lalalala....life is great, oh yes it is ^^

Ryan's amazing. Hands down. and I've decided there is no use having this journal be private anymore. What's the use hiding who I am, how I feel? It's just simply not worth it in the long run. I like promoting my emotions, especially when it comes to flaunting my emotions regarding love. Honestly, it is my driving force, a major part of my essence that just is embedded into every single vien in my body, every single minor twitch in my muscles, it's everything I am, and everything I want to be. And no, it's not American Express or Visa or whatever that commercial says it is. It's better.


Listen to my Heart
Hear it Sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change
Winter to Spring
But I love
Until the end of Time

Love? Not yet, of course...though it's a major possibility with the rate of how things are going.

I spent all weekend with him, and it was so great! I'm just afraid we're doing to much together too fast, but I cant help it, I want to be around him all the time >.< So it's a major clash with my mind telling me to go slower, to take some time to be away from him, but my heart and body *cough* just doesn't quite realize he might actually grow tired of me...

So yeah. The weekend. Great thing, the weekend.

Friday Night- Went to the game, sat up in the stands with Ryan (even though he's in band, I snuck into the band section with him a couple of times xD)

Saturday- Went to the mall to get my nails taken off, ran into Ryan. Ditched the nail plan, instead I went to his place and discovered a few of his.....*smirks* weaknesses.

and he killed me. totally killed me. his momma said I had pretty eyes and pretty red hair. and he said (from his room) 'Oh mom, it's not really red....' OMF! I was blushing so bad! he was in SO much trouble! Karma bit him though, because he forgot his phone.

Sunday- Went out with Ryan to GVM, saw Without a Paddle, that was an awesome movie! xD it was so funny!! He kept trying to feed me those little swedish fish, it was really a lot of fun. Even if I didn't like those little fishies...he made it better. And when we got up, the theature was empty, it was actually very very sexy. Why? I had this shirt on (with my favorite victoria's secret bra underneath xD ) that buttoned up. And the whole night, he was playing with my shirt, ya know how the button has that little space between it? Well, he grabbed that little spot, and pulled me to him, and just....YUM! XD one of those semi rough, very sexy kisses...and yeah. I can tell he's going to be bad for business. (a cookie for whoever can tell me what that's from!) (Sptt...it'll be an icon of mine soon, if you -really- have no clue. just wait.

But anyways. So then we went back to my place, he met my folks, stole my dog's heart away, and then messed around on my computer for awhile. Well, he took my hands, pulled my closer to him (I'm seriously liking this whole rough thing...) when I leaned down and kissed him, Brandy (my dog if you guys dont remember) leapt from my bed and was very driven to get between us o. o I couldn't tell who she was fighting to get to, me or him xD like I said, he stole her heart away hehe...

So yeah. at 9 my folks said that he should go, just because it was a school night and all....so when I walked him out, he was holding my hand ( he had done the Finger thing about....well hell, too many times to count [ if you read this Hun, j'adore the finger thing. yesh yesh ] ) and then he led me up so that I was the curb, and I WAS EYE LEVEL! XD and that was what he mentioned. "oh! Hey! you're about as tall as I am now!" blah. if I didn't love him like I do.....xD


So yeah. A few more kisses, life was great and all that.....and then I went back inside, and pretty much went to bed. The boy wears me out! but I loved it xD