Rawr.

the 27th is coming up *sighs*

I dont drink...yet I want to be drunk that day. I dont want to remember it.

heh. here, Jennifer i'm saying you were right. gordon and i werent really together...it was..odd. pleasant, and yet so painful. oh well.

I have to go through the 19th (OMF four months o.o) to get to the 27th a year since I met him

for the hell of it, I should IM him and be like 'how are you sweetheart?' and yeah. I wont do that. but yeah. I've been having nightmares with him in it....kinda nightmares. unpleasent moments more really.....

Gordon repeatedly would drag me away from Ryan saying something about 'he doesnt really love you, he never did...it was a plot, ect. ect. ' and i'd be crying and stuff. *sighs* I think I'm just stressed...and afraid. yeah. and dreading the 27th.