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Im a senior now.

But I dont want to be. In six days, I have to say goodbye to the best person I've ever known. Im not ready for that. I think about it, and I get tears in my eyes...I just...I just dont know what will happen. I Love him. I love him so much it hurts me to think about the possibility of loosing touch with him. Like, I'm afraid after awhile I'll resent him for being able to do things I cant. He's at a different stage of his life than I am, but in a year, I'll be right there with him.

A part of me wants to be right there with him. Like, Im thinking about submitting an application to San Marcos. I..I dont know if I'd act on it, but I love him enough to follow. And even if well....we dont last like we are right now (Im going to love him no matter what. He's an amazing person, someone I really admire, and I want our friendship to last no matter what happens otherwise, it'd kill me not to be his friend at least)....it'd be wonderful to have someone to turn to at college..

*sighs* Im just really scared about today, and yeah. As a result, everything is suddenly life-or-death