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I hate medicine.
Jun. 3rd, 2006 11:37 amSo for all of you in the RP world, Im gone for a week.
Ive got a MAJOR back spasm, I cant move or anything, and I cant sit up for more than like....10 minutes. it just hurts so much. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, she put me on anxiety medicine to help me relax-should help the back thing she said- and Im on my birth control pills. And then Thursday I start running a REALLY high fever of 102.5. so that's bad. friday, it spikes to 103.5 and Im sweating but shivering cold. we go back to the doctor, and she gives me an antibiotic.
blah. I hate pills.
Friday night, Ryan was supposed to come over.
At first, he said right after dinner. and then 9:45. and at 9:40 I told him just to come in, my back was hurting too back to actually get up or anything. Im laying on the couch watching the road to eldorado....its one of my favorite animated movies ever heh. I skip my meds, because they put me to sleep and I want to be awake when he gets here. Im under two blankets and shivering still. x.x
at about 11 I decide I just cant take it anymore and I go take my meds and tell him forget it. apparently hes fixing Jens computer, and its taking forever. that's great. *sighs* I hate myself for being so needy. I hate myself for being so selfish. I shouldn't be upset if things dont work perfectly, if he has other things to do, its ok.
So why cant I actually follow those rules?
this is the first time I've ever been mad at him, and we'll have been together for two years in september.
Ive got a MAJOR back spasm, I cant move or anything, and I cant sit up for more than like....10 minutes. it just hurts so much. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, she put me on anxiety medicine to help me relax-should help the back thing she said- and Im on my birth control pills. And then Thursday I start running a REALLY high fever of 102.5. so that's bad. friday, it spikes to 103.5 and Im sweating but shivering cold. we go back to the doctor, and she gives me an antibiotic.
blah. I hate pills.
Friday night, Ryan was supposed to come over.
At first, he said right after dinner. and then 9:45. and at 9:40 I told him just to come in, my back was hurting too back to actually get up or anything. Im laying on the couch watching the road to eldorado....its one of my favorite animated movies ever heh. I skip my meds, because they put me to sleep and I want to be awake when he gets here. Im under two blankets and shivering still. x.x
at about 11 I decide I just cant take it anymore and I go take my meds and tell him forget it. apparently hes fixing Jens computer, and its taking forever. that's great. *sighs* I hate myself for being so needy. I hate myself for being so selfish. I shouldn't be upset if things dont work perfectly, if he has other things to do, its ok.
So why cant I actually follow those rules?
this is the first time I've ever been mad at him, and we'll have been together for two years in september.
