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At some point, the things you love the most you must let go.
Starting off sounding like that must be so bittersweet, and I imagined when it came time to write this message, that I could fill it with quips and good times long past - unfortunately, I cant.
I have been, without question, one of the most devoted members to this board. I was the first Aerkin to join, I have been kinleader at all three renditions of Myth, and have done so many behind the scenes tasks for the game that it's not even funny. In all three years, I have never once felt appreciated or respected. Maybe some people do, maybe I've just missed noticing, but the truth of the matter is that I just dont feel like it's worth it for me to be here anymore.
I made Skylark in the hopes that she would be the text book Aerkin. Appearance wise, she is right on the dot, her name screams Aerkin, and her personality is on the nose. She is dull, uninteresting, and predictable. Nothing about her is exciting. The only thing that kept me interested in her was her relationship with Reimei. Her family, and the people that roleplay in it, are the only thing I will miss from this game.
I will not miss the abusive mannerisms of some people on the staff, I will not miss the childish and immature antics of the members of the board, I will not miss the tedious act of watching over everyone to make sure they all play nice. I was at my happiest, I imagine, at Myth with Kismet and Ulysses. And we all know what happened there.
This has been a long time coming. Skylark is the longest lasting original kinleader, and I am the longest lasting staff member apart from Orli. Woo hoo. I feel for Near, and for myself and the other games I play at, it is best if I just back out now. There is no reason that I should continue to drag my feet around here, coming onto the board only when I absolutely must, not posting, hiding away from my packmates. It couldn't have been hard to tell I hated playing Skylark. I saw it, no doubt everyone else saw it. I dont like how in my quest to have her be the perfect Aerkin, I was given a very limited amount of room to create a character. I guess I just need the happier, upbeat kind of girls. (being that I play mostly females.)
It's with a heavy heart that I say goodbye, but it is time. With my own game opening very soon, I feel that I need to stop pretending I'll get back into Near, or that Skylark will magically become interesting to me - it's time that I face my problem, and stop hiding from it. There is no other way to do this, since Skylark cant just magically do a 180 with her personality, and I cant just sit back and do the grunt work.
I will always love to hear from members of the board, I feel there are some of you that I grew close with - especially my little family. Britt is actually the co owner of the game I plan on opening, and Krysti and Amanda are dear friends of mine. Sadly, I cant say I'm too close to anyone else that's still here, but I am always happy to talk with people. Just be aware, if you are disrespectful to me, I will not respond to you. I have no need to be harassed anymore over this game, so dont bring me any trouble.
In closing, I wish each and every member of the board a long, happy career in the world of roleplaying. Skylark will have gone off to find Akatsuki, and she will have told her family her plans. She expects to return eventually, but that probably wont happen. I will still roleplay, naturally, and I can be found under the user names Fatin Kali at Bleeding Souls, and Song at Wild Wolf Society. Both are featured affiliates, I believe.
As I said, I wish you all the best, and the best to Near.
Starting off sounding like that must be so bittersweet, and I imagined when it came time to write this message, that I could fill it with quips and good times long past - unfortunately, I cant.
I have been, without question, one of the most devoted members to this board. I was the first Aerkin to join, I have been kinleader at all three renditions of Myth, and have done so many behind the scenes tasks for the game that it's not even funny. In all three years, I have never once felt appreciated or respected. Maybe some people do, maybe I've just missed noticing, but the truth of the matter is that I just dont feel like it's worth it for me to be here anymore.
I made Skylark in the hopes that she would be the text book Aerkin. Appearance wise, she is right on the dot, her name screams Aerkin, and her personality is on the nose. She is dull, uninteresting, and predictable. Nothing about her is exciting. The only thing that kept me interested in her was her relationship with Reimei. Her family, and the people that roleplay in it, are the only thing I will miss from this game.
I will not miss the abusive mannerisms of some people on the staff, I will not miss the childish and immature antics of the members of the board, I will not miss the tedious act of watching over everyone to make sure they all play nice. I was at my happiest, I imagine, at Myth with Kismet and Ulysses. And we all know what happened there.
This has been a long time coming. Skylark is the longest lasting original kinleader, and I am the longest lasting staff member apart from Orli. Woo hoo. I feel for Near, and for myself and the other games I play at, it is best if I just back out now. There is no reason that I should continue to drag my feet around here, coming onto the board only when I absolutely must, not posting, hiding away from my packmates. It couldn't have been hard to tell I hated playing Skylark. I saw it, no doubt everyone else saw it. I dont like how in my quest to have her be the perfect Aerkin, I was given a very limited amount of room to create a character. I guess I just need the happier, upbeat kind of girls. (being that I play mostly females.)
It's with a heavy heart that I say goodbye, but it is time. With my own game opening very soon, I feel that I need to stop pretending I'll get back into Near, or that Skylark will magically become interesting to me - it's time that I face my problem, and stop hiding from it. There is no other way to do this, since Skylark cant just magically do a 180 with her personality, and I cant just sit back and do the grunt work.
I will always love to hear from members of the board, I feel there are some of you that I grew close with - especially my little family. Britt is actually the co owner of the game I plan on opening, and Krysti and Amanda are dear friends of mine. Sadly, I cant say I'm too close to anyone else that's still here, but I am always happy to talk with people. Just be aware, if you are disrespectful to me, I will not respond to you. I have no need to be harassed anymore over this game, so dont bring me any trouble.
In closing, I wish each and every member of the board a long, happy career in the world of roleplaying. Skylark will have gone off to find Akatsuki, and she will have told her family her plans. She expects to return eventually, but that probably wont happen. I will still roleplay, naturally, and I can be found under the user names Fatin Kali at Bleeding Souls, and Song at Wild Wolf Society. Both are featured affiliates, I believe.
As I said, I wish you all the best, and the best to Near.