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What to do, what to do.
That's always the story of my life. I never know what to do.
How many times has Fatin had shit thrown at her? Four and a half years of playing this girl, she's walked through 5 partners, been left by an exceeding amount of children (both blood and adopted), the 4 siblings I tried adopting out, all dropped. How much more?
When I began playing her, she was strong willed and quickly drew people to her. She feasted upon the attention and love she received from people, because she has that fatal flaw. She needs to be loved. She wants to be loved. She feeds off people's love, she desperately needs someone there with her.
I am so fucking tired of being there, and people then just flaking off. Four and a half years, and she's only left for a month total. Amazing. A-fucking-mazing.
Is it really oh so much to ask that someone who starts a plot with me actually sticks it out? Is it so hard to get someone to actually do what they fucking say?
It kills me. Nothing is harder in the world than playing a character who cannot be played. I cannot just do some 360 and turn her personality around, over four years has gone into playing her, developing her, and for what? Me to hit a rough patch where she just falls apart.
It's pretty damn sad. I'm fairly pissed at myself for not knowing what to do with her....
That's always the story of my life. I never know what to do.
How many times has Fatin had shit thrown at her? Four and a half years of playing this girl, she's walked through 5 partners, been left by an exceeding amount of children (both blood and adopted), the 4 siblings I tried adopting out, all dropped. How much more?
When I began playing her, she was strong willed and quickly drew people to her. She feasted upon the attention and love she received from people, because she has that fatal flaw. She needs to be loved. She wants to be loved. She feeds off people's love, she desperately needs someone there with her.
I am so fucking tired of being there, and people then just flaking off. Four and a half years, and she's only left for a month total. Amazing. A-fucking-mazing.
Is it really oh so much to ask that someone who starts a plot with me actually sticks it out? Is it so hard to get someone to actually do what they fucking say?
It kills me. Nothing is harder in the world than playing a character who cannot be played. I cannot just do some 360 and turn her personality around, over four years has gone into playing her, developing her, and for what? Me to hit a rough patch where she just falls apart.
It's pretty damn sad. I'm fairly pissed at myself for not knowing what to do with her....
