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As always, I get an incredible high and then an incredible low.
When I asked Ryan a few weeks ago when my parents old me they wanted me out if he would want to move with me, he said no, he'd rather wait.
So I started to look around, trying to find a place to live.
Last night he told me he was moving in with Randy and Raven, and I called him on the shitty, shitty move.
So he back tracked and now says that he wants to find us a place, and now Randy and Raven are pissed at me.
yay.
Elaboration:
I had to run earlier, which is why this was so short. It's such a complex entry, because there is a lot of he said she said going on I believe, and unfortunately, I'm pretty sure I got painted as the bad guy.
Ryan told me he didn't want to move into a house with people he didn't know, and I said asked what about finding our own place. That's when he dropped the 'I'm moving in with Randy and Raven' bomb on me. My primary thought was Bowser, since he is Ryan's birthday present and they never use the damn AC....Chinchillas are notorious for suffering from heatsroke, and I don't want him living there....but I wouldn't have got him if I knew he was going to be mine. I didn't want the extra fees for food and treats and general upkeep, he was meant to be a present because Ryan's wanted a chin for years.
Finally I told him I felt pretty shitty because he told me a few weeks ago he wanted to wait, and then this week decided to move in with them and he said it was because I was looking for a house. I didn't start looking for a house until I started to look for other people (people from work, with a kid and my boys and kayla's gerbils involved) when Ryan told me he wanted to wait.
I told him it was his choice, just that I thought it was shitty but it was up to him what he did and finally he told me 'I want to start looking for a place for us.' That made me feel a little better, but as soon as he left Randy and Ravens Randy got on Aim and slapped me with 'So why can't Ryan move in?'
I told him that I wasn't his mom and that I never said he couldn't, and Randy replied with 'well that's how he's looking at it'
I got so damn frustrated by that statement alone, that Randy who has been the one person here I've opened up to and actually spilled so much of my heart out to would turn on me like that. Maybe he didn't mean it to be so angry sounding, maybe he didn't mean it to be accusatory, but shit. It cut me to the quick that in one second, I turned into the bad guy. All I could think of was well, if that's the impression Randy got, what was said about me and what I was saying?
I told him that I told Ryan it was a shitty move and I wished that he had been honest with me about moving in the first place....
Now I don't know WHAT to do. I have to get out of this house, and now I don't really want to move in with Ryan because I know its a guilt move on his part, and not what he wanted, and now the offer from Randy and Raven earlier this month is worthless. *sigh* I just get all the luck.
When I asked Ryan a few weeks ago when my parents old me they wanted me out if he would want to move with me, he said no, he'd rather wait.
So I started to look around, trying to find a place to live.
Last night he told me he was moving in with Randy and Raven, and I called him on the shitty, shitty move.
So he back tracked and now says that he wants to find us a place, and now Randy and Raven are pissed at me.
yay.
Elaboration:
I had to run earlier, which is why this was so short. It's such a complex entry, because there is a lot of he said she said going on I believe, and unfortunately, I'm pretty sure I got painted as the bad guy.
Ryan told me he didn't want to move into a house with people he didn't know, and I said asked what about finding our own place. That's when he dropped the 'I'm moving in with Randy and Raven' bomb on me. My primary thought was Bowser, since he is Ryan's birthday present and they never use the damn AC....Chinchillas are notorious for suffering from heatsroke, and I don't want him living there....but I wouldn't have got him if I knew he was going to be mine. I didn't want the extra fees for food and treats and general upkeep, he was meant to be a present because Ryan's wanted a chin for years.
Finally I told him I felt pretty shitty because he told me a few weeks ago he wanted to wait, and then this week decided to move in with them and he said it was because I was looking for a house. I didn't start looking for a house until I started to look for other people (people from work, with a kid and my boys and kayla's gerbils involved) when Ryan told me he wanted to wait.
I told him it was his choice, just that I thought it was shitty but it was up to him what he did and finally he told me 'I want to start looking for a place for us.' That made me feel a little better, but as soon as he left Randy and Ravens Randy got on Aim and slapped me with 'So why can't Ryan move in?'
I told him that I wasn't his mom and that I never said he couldn't, and Randy replied with 'well that's how he's looking at it'
I got so damn frustrated by that statement alone, that Randy who has been the one person here I've opened up to and actually spilled so much of my heart out to would turn on me like that. Maybe he didn't mean it to be so angry sounding, maybe he didn't mean it to be accusatory, but shit. It cut me to the quick that in one second, I turned into the bad guy. All I could think of was well, if that's the impression Randy got, what was said about me and what I was saying?
I told him that I told Ryan it was a shitty move and I wished that he had been honest with me about moving in the first place....
Now I don't know WHAT to do. I have to get out of this house, and now I don't really want to move in with Ryan because I know its a guilt move on his part, and not what he wanted, and now the offer from Randy and Raven earlier this month is worthless. *sigh* I just get all the luck.