2010-02-08

distantvampire: (I'm Poison)
2010-02-08 12:43 am

my luck!

What the fuck is it about my luck that the folks I get close to always, always flip over IC bullshit at some point?

Am I not dedicated enough that I am in the error for not about-facing on people when things change ICly?

Am I just that sort of person that the first chance a person gets to get the fuck away from me they'll do so and leave me with that confused dog face?

I swear I do nothing in a game and go "HOW WILL THIS AFFECT SO AND SO?!' because well....I wouldn't be playing the game if I did. I just try and do shit for the character that is realistic for them.

*rubs temples* and for awhile, this day had picked up after the fuckery that was work.

Maybe I should just stop getting attached to people. Maybe I should just not communicate with anyone online anymore. That would probably make my life much easier, but a hell of a lot more boring.

I guess I can't really have it both ways though. Either I deal with the heartache of losing folks over stupid shit, or I just...have no one. But am I strong enough to go through it every time?