Hmm.

Geez.

I've never done this before. I've never felt that sort of chemistry and that 'we'd be so much trouble for each other' sort of way about a married man before.

The way that we joke around, that casual sort of flirtation, the way it felt when he hugged me, it's insane. It's not right. It's not fair. I find a guy I've got that casual spark with, the efforless chemistry with, and of course he's taken. Gah.

This isn't right and I know it, but like the rest of the theme of my life I can't change it myself lol.

His wife is a social worker and teaches special needs kids, she's a saint. I'm just me. I'm just a kid still. I guess I should take it as a good sign that I want anyone at all, but why why why does it have to be someone who is otherwise occupied? -makes pouty face-

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