I'm...alone?

I feel so alone...just because I haven't talked to Gordon in forever, I just dont feel like myself. I really just feel like crap, becuase I just miss him so much I want to die. And there is stuff going on in his life taht I can't help him with, which kills me even more!

There is some chick with 2 kids who is 2 years older than he is who happens to be hitting on him. Well, what's she going to give him? 250 a month in child support? I've got so much more for him than she ever could offer. I basically want her dead for messing with him. And I trust him enough not to worry about it....but still! She needs to BACKOFF *le sigh*

So yeah. I got paid friday. I got 703 and 50 cents. And 600 of that went into my bank account, of which I should recieve my card and actual checks any day now. Prolly friday though.

Zain is more managable now that he's used to me, and my last day is August 6th, 2004. I can't wait for it. I've got holes in my jeans from following him around constantly, shuffling about on my knees after him. *le sigh again*

I started doing something rather odd...I've been carrying around a quarter in my pocket. Not just any quarter. An ohio state quarter. I constantly have to touch it too...I dont know why. I'm so odd. I saw sleepover with Kelly & Earnest. That was an extremely cute movie!!

it's one of those preteen movies, but still...it's adorable. And it made both me & earnest desperately clingy....cuz Gordon's 1000 miles away, and Earnest doesn't have a boyfriend.

so yeah. I've gtg now...love you all!