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life in general.
Sep. 25th, 2006 12:27 amIm almost tired of life.
Im tired of my roommate, and having people over all the time.
Im tired of my roommate, and her being on the phone all the time. while im trying to sleep.
Im tired of my roommate, and her drying her hair in the mornings when Im trying to sleep.
I hate how I climb up a hill to get to all my classes. And the fact that its the only hill that I've found in texas at all.
I hate how every time I go and try to be nice to someone, I end up getting burned for it. It's happened in high school, it's happened online, it just doesnt stop.
Im so tired of going away for a bit (like my unexpected little blip of disconnection from the internet) one of my characters on myth is off the ranks, as well as my other character's mate, a rpg that I was working on is completely different, and no one bothered to even give me a heads up or email or anything...and either way, both have private messaging on the boards, so its not like I couldn't be contacted- I could have been told, I just wouldnt have responded until today.
I have involved myself in a point at Souls that I dont think there is an understandable way I'd ever leave. And I've been a part of the Staff for almost two years now. In that time, I've seen a bunch of people come and go off the ranks and off the staff. And in the whole time, I've seen so much bullshit go down...people play baby and bitch and moan about how they're leaving and never coming back and all, but they'll be back within a month or two..Im really pissed about how the SA gets treated. I, a member of just the SMT, see how hard the work. and they get so much crap thrown their way. why the hell do they put up with it? people dont get it. and I get so upset watching them get stuff thrown at them time and time again.
and just because I really dont care at this point. the fucking matter with sie and people being upset that we dont look like we arent concerned with what she had to say: She had MONTHS to speak up about the things we were talking about. the thread was there, in the universal staff forum so we could ALL talk about it-not just the 5 SA members. And she never did. but we worked on that letter TOGETHER as a TEAM and all voiced our opinions on it. I helped and write part of that letter myself, and when she just pops on to tell us she's sad and sick because of how we're running her game. well, oh fucking well. be there, say somethng, dont show up once and then bitch and moan. and either play your damn characters, or just leave the fucking game you OBVIOUSLY care so much about. that pisses me off. you dont play either of them at all, or have any concern for hte puppies that you made, but that doesnt matter. you're fucking sie, so yay for you! rules dont apply, but you're still great!
I hate how people are just so damn bitchy and whiney in general. people refuse to listen to me. people hammer me about joining rpgs, or helping them with crap, and only ONCE EVER have I gotten a thank you for what I do. that's wonderful. thank you so much to that person. lori, that really made an impression on me. i've been in situations that i didnt agree with, and just finally have i actually decided to stand up for myself and just do things if I enjoyed it or not. and in this time, i totally reworked the way i responded to my roleplaying 'career' so to say. its not a life, you dont grow and eventually die off, you work at it, and you get to new places, and things change and opportunities arrive. and then i go home for the weekend, where my net connection is never really good....and so much crap happens.
MY EMAIL IS XINIRVANA@GMAIL.COM. USE THE DAMN THING----IM TIRED OF FINDING OUT CRAP ABOUT MY GAMES / CHARACTERS.
my head is killing me, my roommate and the fuckbuddy she's currently clinging to are pissing me off, and I want to go to bed. but they're watching a movie, and im tired of them. im just so fucking tired and pissed off.
Im tired of my roommate, and having people over all the time.
Im tired of my roommate, and her being on the phone all the time. while im trying to sleep.
Im tired of my roommate, and her drying her hair in the mornings when Im trying to sleep.
I hate how I climb up a hill to get to all my classes. And the fact that its the only hill that I've found in texas at all.
I hate how every time I go and try to be nice to someone, I end up getting burned for it. It's happened in high school, it's happened online, it just doesnt stop.
Im so tired of going away for a bit (like my unexpected little blip of disconnection from the internet) one of my characters on myth is off the ranks, as well as my other character's mate, a rpg that I was working on is completely different, and no one bothered to even give me a heads up or email or anything...and either way, both have private messaging on the boards, so its not like I couldn't be contacted- I could have been told, I just wouldnt have responded until today.
I have involved myself in a point at Souls that I dont think there is an understandable way I'd ever leave. And I've been a part of the Staff for almost two years now. In that time, I've seen a bunch of people come and go off the ranks and off the staff. And in the whole time, I've seen so much bullshit go down...people play baby and bitch and moan about how they're leaving and never coming back and all, but they'll be back within a month or two..Im really pissed about how the SA gets treated. I, a member of just the SMT, see how hard the work. and they get so much crap thrown their way. why the hell do they put up with it? people dont get it. and I get so upset watching them get stuff thrown at them time and time again.
and just because I really dont care at this point. the fucking matter with sie and people being upset that we dont look like we arent concerned with what she had to say: She had MONTHS to speak up about the things we were talking about. the thread was there, in the universal staff forum so we could ALL talk about it-not just the 5 SA members. And she never did. but we worked on that letter TOGETHER as a TEAM and all voiced our opinions on it. I helped and write part of that letter myself, and when she just pops on to tell us she's sad and sick because of how we're running her game. well, oh fucking well. be there, say somethng, dont show up once and then bitch and moan. and either play your damn characters, or just leave the fucking game you OBVIOUSLY care so much about. that pisses me off. you dont play either of them at all, or have any concern for hte puppies that you made, but that doesnt matter. you're fucking sie, so yay for you! rules dont apply, but you're still great!
I hate how people are just so damn bitchy and whiney in general. people refuse to listen to me. people hammer me about joining rpgs, or helping them with crap, and only ONCE EVER have I gotten a thank you for what I do. that's wonderful. thank you so much to that person. lori, that really made an impression on me. i've been in situations that i didnt agree with, and just finally have i actually decided to stand up for myself and just do things if I enjoyed it or not. and in this time, i totally reworked the way i responded to my roleplaying 'career' so to say. its not a life, you dont grow and eventually die off, you work at it, and you get to new places, and things change and opportunities arrive. and then i go home for the weekend, where my net connection is never really good....and so much crap happens.
MY EMAIL IS XINIRVANA@GMAIL.COM. USE THE DAMN THING----IM TIRED OF FINDING OUT CRAP ABOUT MY GAMES / CHARACTERS.
my head is killing me, my roommate and the fuckbuddy she's currently clinging to are pissing me off, and I want to go to bed. but they're watching a movie, and im tired of them. im just so fucking tired and pissed off.