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I should really specify something because Ive had a few people make comments on it..
Ryan has had a very, very rough year, and when I post something in here it's because I need to vent my frustrations however I can without blowing up on him for stupid things.
He lost his dad in April, which is enough to set someone in a weird place for ages. He was jobless for awhile, which added stress onto that. He deals with me daily; that'd be enough to screw anyone over >_>
He's gone to counciling, he's doing his part to get through his emotions, so when I put things here it's me getting through mine.
We're two very, very different people and it's part of our process. If something is big enough we handle it together, but we're just the type of people who typically work through our personal problems alone. Of course we're supportive, but neither one of us has to rely on the other to get us through things....we just choose to. I'm really phrasing things horribly, it makes us sound terrible..
The main thing I want people to understand is how much I really love him, and how much he really loves me. There is no point of frustration where I stop loving him, and his patience is endless for me. I'm more quick to anger, I'm more passionate and emotional. He doesn't understand that view point because it's not the type of person he is, and so while I will explain things to him, I use this journal to quickly get it out of my system and then I come back to it.
We're going to make it, make no mistake about that. We just have our system down and it's a science that works well for us.
Ryan has had a very, very rough year, and when I post something in here it's because I need to vent my frustrations however I can without blowing up on him for stupid things.
He lost his dad in April, which is enough to set someone in a weird place for ages. He was jobless for awhile, which added stress onto that. He deals with me daily; that'd be enough to screw anyone over >_>
He's gone to counciling, he's doing his part to get through his emotions, so when I put things here it's me getting through mine.
We're two very, very different people and it's part of our process. If something is big enough we handle it together, but we're just the type of people who typically work through our personal problems alone. Of course we're supportive, but neither one of us has to rely on the other to get us through things....we just choose to. I'm really phrasing things horribly, it makes us sound terrible..
The main thing I want people to understand is how much I really love him, and how much he really loves me. There is no point of frustration where I stop loving him, and his patience is endless for me. I'm more quick to anger, I'm more passionate and emotional. He doesn't understand that view point because it's not the type of person he is, and so while I will explain things to him, I use this journal to quickly get it out of my system and then I come back to it.
We're going to make it, make no mistake about that. We just have our system down and it's a science that works well for us.