.....o.o

I dont know what the hell happened to the world this weekend.

Personally, I got my hair dyed. And I detest it completely. it's too dark, and I dont like it at all! Everyone (besides Preston and Taye) says it looks good and they like it. But I dont care anymore. I figured i'd just say it was fine so my mom wouldn't be sad, but well, I can't do that anymore. it's waaaaay too dark and stuff. And yeah.

Apparently some shit's going on with John and Christine and JP, but I dont know what is happening..I dont really want to talk to Christine or JP about it, because well, of the ones involved, the only one I care about happens to be John. Big shock, huh?

Im just tired of how much he hurts himself! And it just...it just kills me really. Becuase he's like a brother to me, and I care about him a bunch, and to see him just either push someone who cares about him away, or go after people who just will hurt him in the end, it sucks for me. And tat's all I can see coming out of this. Becuase what happened every other time they dated? Well, something generally went wrong, and they ended up hating one another. And yeah.

I dont know what to do anymore, because I cant be their mother, and frankly, I dont want to be. I've got enough issues trying to raise myself! blah, I'm still such a kid. And my mother says that the choices I've made make me an adult, make it so that I can't expect help and stuff...BULLSHIT! heh. But whatever, I'm not too worried about it....she'll deal with it, and I'll deal with it as I grow up some more.

I dont have anything useful to say. Shocker, huh?

Je suis dans l'amour avec Ryan! ♥