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I had a dream I died.

I dont remember how I died, just the fact that I was going to see Ryan, and then I died before I got to see him.

and then I was playing soccer, but it wasn't just me.....Litan was playing soccer with me and all the others. And I went over and pet her tenderly after the game....and then I was dead. That was when it hit me that I was dead. "Im you, and you're me.....If we're both here...that means...we're..." And I never would say it. I Just started crying.

And then the next thing I remember, I was talking to Jenny. I guess, since she's always had that fascination with zombies and stuff, that stuck with me, carried over into my dream. Sphinx never was a part of it, but after the realization, Litan wasnt a part of the dream either.

And she taught me all the things about being dead and stuff....and I just kept thinking about Ryan, about the people I was leaving behind. Mostly Ryan. I just kept wondering how he was taking it, and every time I'd think of him, I'd start crying again...

I woke up when hte phone rang....and I had a trail of tears running down my face and I was clutching my panda to death....

Im so glad I'm going to see him today.....that was a reality check if anything. Just made me realize how much I love the people I Know....how much they mean to me.